Giving Up!

 

I'M GIVING UP! It's been soooo long since I declared to my heart that I'm falling in love with you. I declared it at August 2009, when I was in 7th grade. It means about 33 months my heart is taken, stolen by you. Even not with my relationship status :-)

you give me soooo much hopes. A really super big hopes. You make me flying so high until I can't touch the sky, far faraway above the sky. My bestfriends call me crazy, fool to fall in love with someone who always gives me hopes, but never respect my feeling. I know you never know about my feeling, cause I never want you to know. I'm scared if you'll change.

I know you aren't a good man. You're a good player, fake hope giver, and you'd ever cheating in your relationship, I mean you had more than 1 girlfriend. But I don't know why I always forgive you no matter what. You'd ever talk behind me, and I forgive you even you never ask an apologize to me. Once again, my friends call me fool. But I prefer to act like I don't care. 

 

My friends call me I'm crazy, they always try to make me move on. They searched for another boys, I respect them but I CAN'T falling to those boys. I don't know why, I'm crazy over you. Stalking your profile everyday, searching for your news from your friends. But yeah, I never show that to you. I didn't expect that you'll love me back, someday. I just love you without a reason, without expecting any rewards. I'm not forcing you to love me back. I remember those days, when I know that you were in a relationship with another girls. I admit it, that's really hurt. But that's okay. As long as you happy, can smile, it's okay for me. Watching you in a distance is enough for me. I never expect to have a relationship with you, I never expect you to know about my feeling. I love you secretly, tacitly.

I'm giving up of moving on from you. Let this story flow, I'll follow it until it could find the way to end the story.

Never expect, because if it's meant to be, it will be - yofi